Realisation

It's almost one year since I stepped into this island in which some of you might say: "Aiyooo, so small can't even see it from the world map!" Yes, I have been living in this island for a year. What I felt grateful is God actually listen to the voice of my heart. Apart from doing my routine work as a ward pharmacist, I had this opportunity to join this meaningful program called "Pharmacy Outreach Program". It's a program funded by the Ministry of Health of Singapore to visit patient who is frequently admitted to hospital due to poor family support or drug related problems.

Each home visit is a valuable experience to me:

...My first home visit was not going to patient's house, but to a hospital to pick him up....There was this two old couple, one with poor vision and one with dementia, taking each other meds due to poor family support... Despite his own illness, the dedicated husband still take care of his wife, serving her the meds, refused to admit to hospital even though he is sick, worried that the wife cannot cope on her own.

These are real life stories, I have seen very good and very poor family support background, caregiver in despair, lost, stress...I have also seen cases whereby patient just give up him/herself.

I've give in my best to offer them my help. It makes me feel rewarding whenever they say a simple word "Thank you". It makes me feel like cloud nine when they can cope with their medication better, not taking the wrong drug or at the wrong instructions and they get better and happier! I'm glad that they give me these opportunities to seek value in my work, giving me all the positive energy and clues to dispense the medication effectively.

It makes me realise that we should not ignore all the small little things we can do for them. Because, it will makes a huge difference on them. Never say no for any extra things you can offer for your patients. They are here in the hospital because they need someone there to care for them.

June 2013

A month which I started to contemplate about my future, what exactly I feel like doing, what life I would like to lead.

Well, maybe I should not ask myself so much questions yet as the answer will unfold when it's time.

五月五

这是马来西亚人民其中最历史性的一天，

游子们纷纷从西面八方回国投下那神圣的一票，

祈求这片土地会有更好的未来。

虽然到最后，马来西亚还是无法变天，

但种种的片段跟画面都验证着人民的决心。

只是，这是一场长年的拉锯战，

只要不放弃，继续努力，我们的国家还是会有希望的。

虽然我们改变不了他人以不人道的方式获得的胜利，

但是，人民的心是明的。

面子书大家纷纷的埋怨跟失望，

但是，想一想，那些领袖们努力了几十年，每一届尝到的失败滋味会比我们少吗？

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回到工作的岗位，一位同事说到

：看到你们的政治那么的黑暗，应该没什么希望得了，可以考虑当这里的公民。

其实，听到这番话，我替自己打抱不平。

这是我成长的地方，有我爱的人跟文化，

无论在哪里，只有在这片土地让我可以称得上家园，

尽管种种的现象让人看似没有希望，

但是，身为国家的一分子，我们不能轻言放弃，

要努力的捍卫这片爱土，让更多人明白改变背后的意义，

为我们的下一代带来希望。

药剂师

许多人对药剂师的工作充满疑惑，

常常有人问到：你从事什么行业啊？

答：我在医院工作 （不想多说）

问：哦，医生吗？还是护士？ （还不甘心地问下去）

答：两个都不是，我是药剂师

问：哦，就是包药的啦？

其实，我们的工作并不是包药，

包药谁都可以，

不需要四年大学文凭，

不需要一年实习，

我们的工作，也很有意义的，

我们要不断的更新我们的知识，考试，

除了要懂得药，还要了解疾病和医学知识，

虽不用动手动脚医病，

但是医生所配的药，

我们都要确保是最适合的，分量是对的，没有和其他药物相撞。

病人回家的药， 我们都得一一检查过，

同时间我们也要每天monitor病人的验血报告确保一些高风险的药没有对病人的生命造成威胁

我们要面对病人，要提升病人对药的认知，解答他们的疑惑，

我们要面对医生和护士对药物的提问。

我们把所学到的药物的知识，提供医务人员和病人专业的解答。

一天要面对的病人至少有 50个，

并不是每天穿的漂漂亮亮在柜台前配药而已哦！

希望这篇短短的文章可以让你对我们的工作又不一样的见解。

取舍

常听人说：“要舍才有得”

往往人生当中我们要追寻的美好人事物总是波折重重，

有时候让我开始怀疑到底那是不是我想要的。

我开始发觉自己并没有对这份工作那么的充满热成，

不是完全讨厌，

但是那工作量和压力有时让人透不过气。

说走，能走去哪？

说留，能否撑过？

眼看公司能给自己一个提升的机会，

但代价是，

半工读 + 多一年的合约。

我，还真的不知道该如何是好。

看来啊，要平平凡凡的过日子，也得放下很多东西，也不容易啊！

生活点滴

在新国将近半年了，

忙碌的工作，忙碌着过生活，

和好朋友的联系也没那么的频密，

大家都在忙着筑梦，

能聚在一起的时间也少了，

让我更加珍惜每一次能够相聚的时光，

哪怕只是那短短的几个小时。

忙碌之余，要注意饮食，注意健康。

在我一而再再二三的忽略之下，

身体开始拉警报了，

让我不得不反省自己的作息。

工作和生活要取个平衡点，

我还在学。

好想念你们哦 ！

There will moments when you will paused for a few secs before you could answer that someone who queries about your age;

when you have to walk confidently by putting on your mum's high heels but your toes are actually battling with the pain;

when you have to say I'm fine when your heart is actually crying;

you inhale deeply to clear your mind in order to have a better vision,

and then next thing you do is step forward,

to the mystery...

Moments like this are moments of the life journey,

it's individualised, it's meant to be experienced on your own.

It's alright when the fears overfilled,

take one step at a time,

the flowers are blooming when you are least expecting it

别离

或许是因为人生的变数，

才让我们更加珍惜一路上遇见的人跟事物。

人与人的关系很微妙，

先是缘分让我们相遇，

后来就得靠彼此去维系，

变数让我们学会应对，

时间证明我们的诚意。

我们无法预知未来，

当离别的钟声顿时响起的时候，

除了不舍还是得说一句， 珍重！希望在下一个路口我们会再见。

Gift from Santa

After working for almost two months in Singapore, I managed to get myself  four days off from work. I take them as blessings from Santa! Since this is the last minute gift from Santa, everything was not pre-planned and hence "surprises" just knock you out! Giving me all the wooo and waaahhh :P

X'mas tree at work place added some joy in my boring work

Everywhere is crowded, esp Orchard Road - as expected

Friday night outing while enjoying the decoration in Orchard

Christmas ball is useful for posing! whee~

Movie is a must! and she is gorgeous like the fairlady

Was planned to visit underwater world but we had to cancel due to the long queue and waiting time.

3hours?! oh next time then :(

Sentosa island 

Bugis+ 

Marina barrage

Fun-filled day with a bunch of fun people.

explored a new spot in Singapore.

will definitely pay for another visit with kites and a picnic basket :D

Merry Christmas everyone!

I thought that I am not coping it but gradually I am,

doubts will hold you back but hang on,

it requires time and chances to prove yourself,

Have faith even though the vision doesn't seem to be clear right now :)

I miss the pot full of mussels with Mr. Vegetable

Glasgow, Aug 2011

I'm feeling: 

Random thoughts

Was thinking if I could own a house in the future, with the wallpapers of clouds in one of the room and green coloured rugs to resemble the grass...

And the room should have one side of the wall painted with a tree and some cute animals on it

Just a space like this to disconnect myself from outside..

Or it could be above the trees where the small little house could be built...with small windows on top to watch the stars twinkling at night....

Someday, I hope that I could wake up every morning to brew coffee for myself and the loved ones...

To watch the elephants and lions freely in the place where they belongs to

To live with basics

Some says downtime wasn't bad at all,

it's ok to feel upset about it,

but it will not last forever,

it brings you more opportunities and hope,

it is what makes goodtime so sweet and beautiful.

化疗与我

我觉得我的生活和化疗很像，

当我面对生活的挫折，

当我拿到不喜欢的工作，

当我和不喜欢的人相处，

心里的埋怨就像在做化疗的时候，

因为对陌生的东西产生排斥。

虽说这是自然的反应，

但排斥只会增加身心的负担，

唯有慢慢地接受跟调试。

喜不喜欢，试了才知道，

不要太快为自己做决定，作定论，

错过了一次又一次认识自己的机会。

一开始到新的环境工作，听了太多不好的，

心里早已下定论，

处处觉得其他人和事情在针对着自己，

当我抛开了那些想法，

再试着去接受之后，

我才领悟到我并不是很了解自己要的是什么，

我其实并没有那么的讨厌并有点喜欢新的工作。

I'm feeling: 

Let the bad times roll

"Finaaaaleh"

Nothing could express how I feel right now.

Words can't describe the things that I've been through last two weeks

From worries --> anxiety --> relief --> passionate --> disappointed --> whatever --> aggressive and then back to relief again.

Perhaps I should remind myself that the journey is not always being smooth,

pitfalls are necessary,

but you can't ignore the happiness that the scenery and people bring to you.

I choose to learn as much from those falls,

& at the same time, to enjoy the happy moments that life's given me in return.

It just depends on how I look at it.

I'm gonna choose to look at it that way, and live it that way.

white vintage car is handsome :)

I'm feeling: 

Give me a smile, would you?

There is something that I would miss in Hull, UK is the fact that people tend to be more friendly and  generous in giving you a smile, even though we both know that we are just strangers to one and another.

It does seem to be odd to people who live in a busy city,
with the usual excuse= STRESS
But giving someone a smile does brighten up someone's day,
and it will does the same to you too!
I guess the bad weather in the UK does teach us how to cheer each other days up no matter how bad it is.
there is still something good that we should appreciate/ look forward in our life.

Sometimes, when you are in the long queue,
or when you are in the train,
and you are bored or encountered something fascinating,
people does turn around and talk and share the thoughts.
Even if it was just a short moment, but it does brighten up the day, making the relationship between people to be closer. It's not weird at all, there is no such thing as being cool by keeping everything to yourself.

Sharing a smile, a kind thoughts, the word "thank you" or a hug are things that we should learn from the west.

Our community does need more human touch, don't be stingy and start giving someone some warmth to kick start their day!

Smile, it's simple :)

For you who are going through the pitfalls in life,

you have all my support and love,

a pair of ears and not-so-strong shoulders to lean on.

xxx

忙里偷闲

最近在工作，见朋友，整理东西的时间里转来转去，

之前悠哉的日子还真的让人怀念啊！

不过话虽如此，

最近的每个周末是我最开心的时光，

因为即将离开，到处跑跑，

又有好友相伴，

只是随着年龄我的精力也消耗的很快，玩了一整天就累垮了，一下子就倒在床上呼呼地睡去，像猪一般。

想想每一年的七月和八月，我总是很忙，

生活的转变总是落在这些月份，

心情总是其兴奋又忐忑不定，

九月和十月又是另一个转折点，

既来之则安之，

等落脚以后再想吧！

爱久见人心

或许是自己也难免身在其中，觉得歌词很贴切吧，

人往往忙于追寻而总是忘了初衷的想法，

谈远距离本来就不能和常见面的成正比，

但却常因为猜疑跟寂寞而忘了要珍惜和信任。

别人的眼光，

别人的话，

听听就罢，

重要的是，彼此相信爱久见人心。

废寝忘食

被搁在一旁的早餐想必是哭了一整个早晨，

被发现时已经冷掉了。

真抱歉，主人忙的时候失去了听觉。。。

与其等别人带给你快乐，倒不如自己先创造快乐，把快乐带给身边的人；

与其等机会来临，倒不如开始付诸行动创造更多的机会；

与其等别人来爱你，倒不如大声地对他说“我爱你”

因为“等”只会让我们错过很多，

浪费了很多宝贵的时间在做无谓的猜测，

倒不如先踏出一步，

最起码对得起自己，无怨无悔，


而且你可能会发现其实大家都在等，只有少数的人真的会先动哦！

学习太阳花的精神，

要争取，才能让自己发光发热

“我们天生对危险有戒心，烫到手就缩回手，走到悬崖就停止步 ；

唯有在爱时，我们对可能的危险，既非不怕，也不打算防范，而是想都没想过这是，就开始爱了。。。

【 康永- 给未知恋人的爱情短信 】”

( 图* Raymond pettibon 作品 )

变化

你在埋头苦“按” 手机的同时，

可否想过就这样不知不觉当中，

错过了身边的人或事情的变化。

突然间想起小学的科学作业，

主要是记录豆芽的成长过程。

觉得人和植物的成长很相似，

都是默默的在变化当中。