I thought that I am not coping it but gradually I am,

doubts will hold you back but hang on,

it requires time and chances to prove yourself,

Have faith even though the vision doesn't seem to be clear right now :)

I miss the pot full of mussels with Mr. Vegetable

Glasgow, Aug 2011

I'm feeling: 

Random thoughts

Was thinking if I could own a house in the future, with the wallpapers of clouds in one of the room and green coloured rugs to resemble the grass...

And the room should have one side of the wall painted with a tree and some cute animals on it

Just a space like this to disconnect myself from outside..

Or it could be above the trees where the small little house could be built...with small windows on top to watch the stars twinkling at night....

Someday, I hope that I could wake up every morning to brew coffee for myself and the loved ones...

To watch the elephants and lions freely in the place where they belongs to

To live with basics

Some says downtime wasn't bad at all,

it's ok to feel upset about it,

but it will not last forever,

it brings you more opportunities and hope,

it is what makes goodtime so sweet and beautiful.

化疗与我

我觉得我的生活和化疗很像，

当我面对生活的挫折，

当我拿到不喜欢的工作，

当我和不喜欢的人相处，

心里的埋怨就像在做化疗的时候，

因为对陌生的东西产生排斥。

虽说这是自然的反应，

但排斥只会增加身心的负担，

唯有慢慢地接受跟调试。

喜不喜欢，试了才知道，

不要太快为自己做决定，作定论，

错过了一次又一次认识自己的机会。

一开始到新的环境工作，听了太多不好的，

心里早已下定论，

处处觉得其他人和事情在针对着自己，

当我抛开了那些想法，

再试着去接受之后，

我才领悟到我并不是很了解自己要的是什么，

我其实并没有那么的讨厌并有点喜欢新的工作。

I'm feeling: 

Let the bad times roll

"Finaaaaleh"

Nothing could express how I feel right now.

Words can't describe the things that I've been through last two weeks

From worries --> anxiety --> relief --> passionate --> disappointed --> whatever --> aggressive and then back to relief again.

Perhaps I should remind myself that the journey is not always being smooth,

pitfalls are necessary,

but you can't ignore the happiness that the scenery and people bring to you.

I choose to learn as much from those falls,

& at the same time, to enjoy the happy moments that life's given me in return.

It just depends on how I look at it.

I'm gonna choose to look at it that way, and live it that way.

white vintage car is handsome :)

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