灰

每当想起烟霾会一直持续的笼罩着，我真的很不想再面对下去。

是的，就当作是一个隧道，会过去的，会散的。一切会变得好一点？不觉得。我知道，几年后会比现在还不乐观。我知道，那天开始，我的人生已经和别人不一样了。也只能强颜欢笑？尽量不去触碰出那伤口。

我知道，我还有很长的路要走，我希望爱我和我爱的人和我一起坚强起来，我一个人真的没那么多力量根把握能够撑下去。

有时看看身边的人，我还真的很羡慕。开着那些笑容让我很羡慕，很妒忌。一切都不会重来了，我也只能接受了吧？不能一直假装看不见了，面对和克服是我必须要做到的。有时，真的不是所有的东西都会是永恒的吧？而我们也只能学会面对那些不断变化的事跟人？

我祈祷身边的人都会很好。可以走过来。

放心，我会活得好好的！等思绪整顿好后，等看透了之后，我会再一次的整装待发:)

Ishhh

Finally is my turn to work. But im sure it would be fun!!! Last week was great:) Meeting frens, spending time with my family, watching movies, having typical malaysian food and watching world cup.... All these things are something that I've been anticipating for the past nine months:)

But, this kinda life is not balanced.Is time to do something productive then.

Managed to overcome jet lag within days. Nothing is impossible right. Mind is the main thing that controls everything. Worries and fear and the things that create barrier that halt us from getting closer to what we want.

I still haven got chance to eat my "lobak gou" and mango ice:)))

Thoughts of the day

自己认为最好，才是最好。

Recently been through some unhappy thing and I'm glad that I can calm down now and slowly accept the truth.

When u face difficulties, is just part of your life journey. Not only we can accept it, we can also choose how to live with it.How? Stand up or just continue to live with the pain.

I'm glad that I could stand up at the right moment and move on.

Result was out yesterday night. Glad that everything turned out well. At least all my efforts did pay off. Pre-reg is something that i would like to be secure in next year. Wish me luck:)

HOME

Yea, im back to my home two days ago.Lotsa friends were being so worry about me cause im such a "sesat" girl who doesnt really know how to recognise road and directions. Felt so sorry for making everyone's worry and I'm glad that I managed to get to the right place, right plane and at the right time.haha.

No more worries. I'm no longer the small lil girl.I can manage things on my own.Sorry for having such a baby face and alw give ppl such an impression that I'm weak and need lotsa help.

U guys are just spoiling me really.

Anyway, really appreciate all my friend's concern.

Nearly cry uncontrollably the moment I saw mum and tears were rolling on here eyes.Manahed to get hold on my tears.Must be tough. I told myself.

Everything seems like so unreal to me.I'm actually bek home.Maybe i still not get used to it. Though is hot and stuffy, but, i enjoyed it!

I like the unbearable weather, the hot sun, the super slow internet connection, the simple yet the most wonderful home cooked meal and soup that mum made for me.

I feel blissful.I will definitely gonna spend more time with my family and friends before I go back again.

I dunno how much I could do but I know I have to be strong.

Things happened recently out of sudden and is such a pain to accept such unexpected thing.

Heart was piercing pain.

1st time havin insomnia.

The so called happy-go lucky momoko is so not happy.

Haha, but i know life still goes on.

Be strong i told myself.

Im not alone.

Is a way of making me grow up i think.

Maybe i shdnt be so naive and innocent anymore.Is time to face all the reality.Cun avoid and act dunno already.Need to pick up my responsibility and get serious.

Time will be the best thing to heal my wound now.And i promise myself that I will not give up and live well.

B happy:) I still got long way to go.

成語故事

從前有一位神射手，名叫后羿。他練就了一身百步穿楊的好本領，立射、跪射、騎射樣樣精通，而 且箭箭都射中靶 心，幾乎從來沒有失過手。人們爭相傳頌他高超的射技，對他非常敬佩。

於是，夏王命人把后羿找來，帶他到御花園裡找了個開闊地帶，叫人拿來了一塊一尺見方，靶心直徑大約一寸的獸皮箭靶，用手指著說：“今天請先生來，是想請你展示一下您精湛的本領，這個箭靶就是你的目標。為了使這次表演不至於因為沒有競爭而沉悶乏味，我來給你定個賞罰規則：如果射中了的話，我就賞賜給你黃金萬兩；如果射不中，那就要削減你一千戶的封地。現在請先生開始吧。”

后羿聽了夏王的話，一言不發，面色變得凝重起來。他慢慢走到離箭靶一百步的地方，腳步顯得相當沉重。然後，后羿取出一支箭搭上弓弦，擺好姿勢拉開弓開始瞄準。

想到自己這一箭出去可能發生的結果，一向鎮定的后羿呼吸變得急促起來，拉弓的手也微微發抖，瞄了幾次都沒有把箭射出去。后羿終於下定決心鬆開了弦，箭應聲而出，“啪”地一下釘在離靶心足有幾寸遠的地方。后羿臉色一下子白了，他再次彎弓搭箭，精神卻更加不集中了，射出的箭也偏得更加離譜。

后羿收拾弓箭，勉強陪笑向夏王告辭，悻悻地離開了王宮。夏王在失望的同時掩飾不住心頭的疑惑，就問手下道：“這個神箭手后羿平時射起箭來百發百中，為什麼今天跟他定下了賞罰規則，他就大失水準了呢？”

手下解釋說：“后羿平日射箭，不過是一般練習，在一顆平常心之下，水平自然可以正常發揮。可是今天他射出的成績直接關係到他的切身利益，叫他怎能靜下心來充分施展技術呢？看來一個人只有真正把賞罰置之度外，才能成為當之無愧的神箭手啊！”

太计较得失反而弄巧反拙，希望有一点天和我有一样困扰的朋友能领悟，不再困在这股漩窝里。还蛮怀念以前小学的时候某段时间的我和表姐会准时地守住电视，应为每天都会有一个成语故事。有趣的动画加上好学的我，很喜欢把学到的成语和意思都抄下来。然而也随着时间热诚也渐渐的减退。想起来，还真的很不错。

童年的回忆，我常常会缅怀，内心深处的我大概是不想长大吧！哈哈

不舍

真的很奇怪，明明就很想回家，从九月就盼望到现在的我，突然间有点不舍。

有些人，有些事情，让我有点放不下。

我希望一切都会好起来。

考完试的我没有比较轻松，反而好像每天都没有时间好好休息，因为每天的我都有节目。hehe

今天和好友们吃饭和提早庆祝雪玲的生日，过后到他们家畅谈，好久没有聚在一起，感觉很棒。

之后有些朋友会继续留下来做工，有些会回家。三个月后我们会再见。这整个星期我们都有在一起，突然间有点不舍。

当然我是很想回家，很想家人，另一边霜，由想念我的朋友们。希望大家都会过得愉快。

觉得自己越大越容易微笑是有所感触，可能很多事情有时是事与愿违，看到很多现实的残酷，让我对亲情，有情，爱情都相当珍惜。讨厌的是，越来越容易掉眼泪。

一个礼拜后，我想我会很兴奋，很紧张，因为要自己一个人搭飞机回家。我朝思暮想的家，我真的可以回来了吗？还是有点不可思议。感觉好漫长啊！

此刻的心情是百感交集的。

Random

Holiday is Fun cause there will be no more routinely wake up, eat , read, eat, read,eat, read, sleep life.But still, it can be more tiring as u will be full of activities that U wanna do,either for urself or with friends.

Today will start moving things into new house.Room is 3/4 empty.Yet, lotsa applications for me to fill it in and post.Less than 2weeks I will be home. Is kinda hard to imagine the day that I yearned for FINALLY arrived.Been dreaming alot about my family and home since I came here.

Last night had an outing with "Beeston+1 dunkirk" gang.This name was inspired by uwen.haha. Dinner plus movie.Prince of Persia was really nice.It was funny in between.Like the story plot.Too bad we came in late and have to sit at the 2nd row.I miss the time v "syiok sendiri" at certain scene. hehe.Like to add our own captions into the storyline.And pretend like we are the narrators.I think we giggled alot:)

I like summer holidays:)

Having dessert

My "tong sui" promoter.Wheeee

Sher ling,ee teen and uwen

Cute couple

Spot the evidence? Darren acted cute:P

me, ee teen and uwen

Andy and the idols (Both are potential singers)

Gok Hau

Me again:P